I don't know what it means when I have such suddend and extremely hostile breakdowns. I don't know why I have such breakdowns. Ones that lead me to back away from friends and loved ones. Ones that have me uproot everything that makes me happy. It&
Some nights I just can't help but feel trapped in an unending cycle. For a lot of things, but especially in my own feelings and processing issues. I think one example is like how I can never see myself as important to anyone. I could never be someone&
One of the biggest and most difficult hurdles being just some person on the internet where all your closest friends are also other people on the internet is how painful it is that when they're hurting most, you can't just be there. It's kind
Something that's been kinda on my mind a lot is how funny feelings get for me when finding out someone has a shared interest of mine. Maybe it's a little hyocritical of me for feeling this way, but most times if the other person is way
It just kinda keeps happening huh. Just ripping casual conversations into full blown flusterings that just make me kind of want to hide my face and snap my eyes shut, hoping that I can hold onto the perceived feeling a little longer... But I suppose I always feel a twinge
So normally if something kinda goes into some more intimate details here, I'd hide it behind a member's only thing and tag it as nsfw on here so people who don't wanna don't gotta. But given this is just a blog post
And as I lay here, calming down from the surge of adrenaline, all I can think about is how much the people I met in 2024 have been incredible boons in my life. Especially my new lil sis and it's equally loveable puppydog. I have so much I
This is becoming like... kind of a nightly thing now. Like some kind of daily diary. Anyways, so every so often I get to delight myself in the joy of seeing someone play one of my most favorite games of all time in real time and it's always
Oftentimes I think about how much I just feel powerless and hopeless wheb it comes to seeing the people around me struggle and writhe for one reason or another. Money reasons, life reasons, etc. etc. And it sucks! I desperately wish I could help them and help others and just.
Because occasionally I'd like to draw a cute boy, y'know? He works so hard, fighting the forces of Darkdark.
So first of all, I'm just gonna say I think maybe it's time for me to use this site a little more than simply dumping my art and calling it a day. Partly to let myself have a little more freedom in how I process things,
I didn't post this the day of just because there was a lot going on, please forgive me. But once again, I maybe got a little in over my head trying to make a mass surprise gift for a lot of people who I just think are cool
"I met a curious being the other day. They seemed friendly enough, but something was a bit... off? Maybe just my imagination..."
Trying to get back into some kind of groove or something. Working on a farm for some reason??
Happy birthday to the most special little space girl in the whole world, someone who has truly made me feel like I belong and the happiest I've ever been. 💜 I'll always do whatever I can to make you smile too!
